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Blog is such an awkward word (so it the word "awkward")...it sounds like some odd shaped building blocks in an odd shaped container for young children.  Nevertheless, I am allying myself with this thing for a few reasons:

Since my surgery, the reading I've done in my downtime has inspired me greatly.  It feels like there is a voice that is filtering through me, an "us and them" type of thing that may seem childish but feels so good and right, that needs to come out of the other end. Also, I think it will be nice to share tribulations and extrapolate on ideas I come across throughout the day.

It fits the direction I'm heading in, a much more serious and spiritual approach to this short life.  I have been a comedian for a long time (and at times, a damn funny one, if I do say so myself) but there is a desperation such a mindset, covering up truth with jokes, varying from cockiness to being the butt of my own jokes.  A wildness I am learning to tame. I surely was selling myself short in exchange for some cheap laughs, at times.  After all, so many comedians are depressed and I think it's because they sense this falseness that's akin to such a way of life, as well.  Don't get me wrong- a life without humor would be unimaginable; it's the best thing to conjure up when everything seems to fall apart.  

I couldn't be moving in this direction without some truly compassionate people to bounce ideas off of. They know who they are...and I'm greatful that they seem to be letting me into their circle.  My old group of friends, though I love them dearly, is just not as close as it once was.  Everyone is moving in their own direction, naturally, like text telling where the characters go off to in life at the end of a movie before the credits scroll.  The party is ending and we are cleaning up...

Everything I can express through letters and word may grace this blog: poems, stories, quotes, lyrics, etc. Wherever it all takes me.  Thanks for reading.